Thursday, June 19, 2008

A busy day of learning from sales to parenthood...

I had a all day training seminar that I attended today....I enjoyed it very much...though by the end of the day I was finding it hard to sit still....9 hours of sitting gets a little hard at this point in the pregnancy...so I am a little more wore out than usual this evening....not noticing anything significant that would let me think that Dylan is arriving in the next 24hours....but really I have no idea...I believe I am getting my first lesson in parenthood....My entire adult life...for the most part...I have attained what I have set my mind to...rarely have things not turned out the way I have planned them or have wanted them to...this pregnancy really has been no exception for the most part....we got pregnant withing 45 days of trying...have had a pretty text book pregnancy...sick the first 90 days...then have felt great since....so I had every expectation that Dylan would arrive just like clockwork...that if needed I could will him to delivery ...work hard and he would deliver...take the necessary steps to convince him that its time to be here....but nothing has worked....I have kind of subconsciously known this....I just knew that he wasn't going to be here on time...he just seems pretty darn content with where he is...so perhaps this is Dylan teaching me my first lesson of parenthood...its not about me...he really isn't concerned about my plans for his birth...this is all about Dylan...this is perhaps his little way to let me know I am no longer in control...that I can't will him to come..I can't walk and work to get him to come...that I must have Patience and acceptance that this is not about me...and when he is ready he will arrive........with that....its been a busy day of learning

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