Deeply madly in love

Motherhood....I am not really crazy about motherhood...I really never have been... I never dreamed of having a big family or really any children....I have always felt complete in my life without children...I have always believed that having a child should be all about the child...that having a child should be all about giving a child the best life possible...I have always believed that if done correctly that having a child and raising a child would be the most rewarding life experience possible....Once Collin entered my life...it truly was the first time in my entire life that I was open to the idea and excited about starting a family...there was no doubt that he would be a wonderful loving father and husband and for the first time in my life I felt I was in a place where I could bring a child into this world....it has been a amazing journey so far..... I must say I am deeply madly in love with Dylan and so proud to be his mom...in my eyes he can do no wrong....in my eyes he is absolute perfection...his poop is perfect since he never complains about it...and it is odorless as far as I can tell...when he is up all night...no worries...we can sleep tomorrow....he is enjoying life so much he doesn't want to miss anything...since the only time he cries is when he wants to be nursed or held...he is my darling angel...it is amazing that how this little man is bigger and more important than anything else in the world....life as we know it has been changed forever....in a awesome and powerful way....we can't wait to see what tomorrow will bring.......