Despair

Today has been a tough day...most likely only to get tougher...our beautiful Solomon is not doing well...we knew this day would come...we have even joked about it in a sick way...but to see such a beautiful young happy dog barely walk...not eat...and not drink...there is a fear in his eyes I have never seen before...he was doing great yesterday...he woke us up to go out about 4 am which is a little earlier but not surprising...Collin went out to get him this morning and he was laying in the backyard...he seemed to have aged overnight from a 1 year old barking tail wagging young dog to a old old dog living his last days...he might have had a mild stroke...he is very weak and is having a hard time walking...though his breathing is good...he has comeback before but I don't think this time...this is truly the worst...they always so that you know when its time to let them go...its true...2 weeks ago it wasn't the time but I think now it is...we had hoped to give him lots of treats and take him on a beautiful walk before we said good bye to our dear friend and loving family member but he really can't walk and has no interest in food...I took off the rest of the afternoon to be by his side and Collin is trying to get the afternoon off though it most likely it won't be possible...we have called our wonderful cardiac specialist at CSU...they put him on a new medicine 2 weeks ago with the concern that is would either help him greatly or make him alot worse...we are taking him off this medicine and hoping that maybe he starts to feel better...so waiting on a call back from CSU with the reality is that there probably is not much that can be done for him...will keep you all posted...keep our special boy in your prayers...only feeling despair